Thread: Mumbai Bleeds Mumbaikar Pleads

Hi,

I write this from my heart, You'll have to excuse me for the spelling mistakes punctuation errors etc. But something in me told me to write this. Mumbai under siege, a group of 20 terrorists from god knows where infiltrate into our city and take the city to ransom, This shows how vulnerable our city is!! What surprises me more is the fact that these terrorists are young and well educated, have planned the operation well in advance. This act is deplorable. Our officers might have laid their lives in trying to save us from impending disaster but what we should not fail to realise is the fact that the terrorists have accomplished their mission of reigning terror and fear in the minds of the people. I had earlier written in a blog when the train blasts happened quoting" Mumbaikars are resilient. They will spring back to action the next day after such an incident. They are so used to such acts that they have almost become immune. I was one of them till four months ago. The train blasts happened and I like many of you took the morning train to office the next day, The newspapers salute the spirit of mumbaikars. But saying that by people resuming to work the next day means that people are not afraid.

This is so untrue man...

On the day the terrorists took seige of mumbai city I was in office i had wrapped up and was about to leave when one of my colleagues had called and told me to stay put in office as there was some firing at the leopolds. Within an hour of this phone call I watched the terrorists unleash the most brutal acts, They had the audacity to get into CST Station (a heritage site) and shoot point blank, they had the guts to get into TAJ and OBEROI and take thousnads of ppl as hostages. They had courage to shoot down 3 of the most respected and experienced Policemen within twenty minutes attack. All that i did was to stay back in office and mutely watch television through the night. I waited for the dawn and as soon as the sun rose I gathered a few people in office who travel to Thane , walked to the station and took the train. But this time the experience was different. I was scared, The way I looked at life changed completely. When the train blasts happened a coupla years ago I was not even married. It didnt matter to me. But this time around I was a married man and I have a 5 months old baby. My life revolves around him, His smile is worth dying for. His tears devastate me. what will happen to him If i died. What if some 20 year old youth who looks like a student springs up and fires me!! Man you have to be in my place to understand the fear. But what could I do, Do i have a choice?? **** no man, I have to take the train all over again like i have done today. Why? I dont need to proive that i am man to anyone, I have taken the train because I have stomachas to fill. And with the state of affairs - global meltdown recession etc etc. I know ppl are looking at me through a microscope!! They are waiting to lay me off for the most simple mistakes that i would do!!

Mumbai is resilient. But To say that people are not frightened would be untrue. Even today As the train was entering Mulund a man came into the compartment with a suitcase. I could see the change in the expressions of people. I could see my eyebrows kindof tense. What if the bomb just took off. Is it a timed bomb?. Will it take off at Dadar because it is an important station?? Life's just not worth it. I would rather die seeing my son smile. To die for no reason at the hands of a terrorists is just not worth it.

Where is Raj Thakeray today? All commandos are from the north. Where is his marathi manoos, Where are his goondas man? why dont they go and take on the terrorists??

The point is that nobody is safe today, and no mumbaikar is brave as shown by press/media. If a mumbaikar is brave then he is brave without choice. He has a family to take care off. He has old parents whose medical expenses are to be taken care off. If he dosent go to work He'll be done for life!!

I dont really care, Man I am scared, And thats the holy truth!!

Hollow man Shallow dreams
Just when i thought that it was the new beginning i realized it was all over!!
Just when i thought life was good, came disasters by the dozens sweeping me away.
I tried hard to fight them off to realise that time has just flown away.

I dreamt of things that i could think of only in dreams....
After all I was a hollow man with shallow dreams

I dreamt of luxury, I dreamt of paradise, I dreamt of a world with total peace,
where swords stuck none, no gun battles, where barbs did not draw countries to fight
Where children were taught how not to fight, where they taught kids good and not to fright, where politics was all about better governance and not used as a means to loot, where people lived with no distraught and led lives without fear of none, where gods were happy cos people were good, minded their work and thought ill of none, worked hard for themselves family and kin, ate their meals and slept at peace...

These are all fiction... and can never happen cos it requires guts to break the mould, get into action and start a revolution, alas... all that i could do was to be mean and rude or ill be sucked into the oblivion for thinking good about the world... I have a family I have a job.. I cannot fathom why i cant do good, as the harder i try i only realise that dreams turn to reality only where there is courage, conviction to change... It can turn real when brave men run across the borders hoping for the new sun...

Life is the same, unpredictable and dry, thoughts seem like an oasis in the vast deserted concrete terrains.

I realized I can do nothing and only follow.. as i came to terms with the fact that I am hollow

I am a Hollow man with Shallow dreams
I am a Hollow man with Shallow dreams

unable to do anything doesnt mean that u are hollow, mate.
the world u were talkin about can not be built by one person.

" Thanks for your comment, When i said "I" it did not mean I myself, I meant each individual. I know for a cat that it is not a single man task. This peom was basically to each one of us!!

thanks
Sudharshan