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When life became an a$€#ole for me! Was shocked to hear about Rameshjee's small nephew.but my story too resembles alot of similarities.the difference is that this one doesnt even know that he is actually in problem.but he must know that there are many of us praying for him.and eventually he will succeed and excell in life.
Those who get bored of long sad ill stories don come here.my story is good for those who keep faith in God.,trust him,and like to know whats life actually.
Friends,i was five years Old,was weak physically and was naughty.studying in class UKG, i got serious fever.in which my body temperature wasnt down below 102 for almost five months.eventually i was barred to go school.i was in Delhi in a private nursing home.i was so small that time.and now i am 21.i was found out to be a deceased of typhoid by some of the great docs of my area.later on in delhi my parents came to know that it was actually blood cancer of type first.stage first of super contra started for me.
The docs said that my parents shall put me,in hospital complete bed rest so that docs can keep an eye on my daily medical developments.i was in delhi hospital for 3whole months.2 lac rupees were flown like water for my life.by the wishes of all i survived.
When i grew up more.i became good student.passed all classes and came forth fifth third first too(very often)i was good in maths.i was good in english.i was good in discipline.
It was all nice till i came in class 6th.dreams were going to shatter again.i had a blood defficiency by five points(for children 8 is abnormal)i had three.i was again taken aback school.shifted to new place at Delhi.again 2-3lacs were flown on me. But this time things were different by all ways.i was a knowledgable guy by now.i knew that cancer is a dreadful decease.non curable.non negotiable.i can remember that how i was treated specially by all people.specially parents and elder brother. Docs gave date.you know i feel that the docs are crazy.i mean whats good if you tell the date of death to someone.they said i have 6more months if not less.and what now?yes i know that docs are very studied ones.but whats the need to someone that you are going to die.and at the same place giving him medicines too.that worth a thousands of rupees.i am against those who profess in this work.but they are really sick.
Time passed again.i was well back.i was so afraid that i will die someday.but now i was ok.that time i was really afraid.and i prayed to God.to help me.
My two more years got in all this.thanks to my parents who took all care.and never kept me like a special person.they beaten me at wrongs.scolded me for being naughty.they gave me a normal bringing and not an abnormal one.
Later in the start of this year i had another attack of blood cancer.this one happens with strong fever.bone breaking pain all over the muscles and tissues.palms become yellow and so the finger tips too.i went to Sanjay Gandhi Post Graduate Institute Of medical sciences Lucknow(better call PGI)
the place looks like a hotel.and when you go inside this hospital its like a mess of thousands of ill people.there are hundreds of department.hundreds of people like you.in line.some even two to ten years.some 80s too.some Cant walk even.but they all have to be in line.i went inside with Papa and the guy at the door.probably a doc himself told both of us,that we are not recommended.so we came back again.had a recommendation from local doc.and went again.i had to stand in line cause i have cancerthey did everything which they did with others.i was not more a patient.just a human being.i got in line stood for my number.was scolded by a guy cause i was harassing him asking too many questions while there were others.:lol:
so i asked to myself.its not bad to struggle for life.and i also thought that my parents have high blood pressure.so if get weak who will see them while my brother is in infosys.just got started his career.i never told him all this.just when in diwali he came.he knew all this.and he bursted in tears.
I know that there are guys who think that life is a mess.i know this too.its a mess thats God doing with all of us.i broke my both hands one finger.but i am a martial arts specialist.i am strong enough but i have cancer.i excelled in judo and kungfu,but i really don even know if i will be living two years from now.because life is uncertain for me.
This all started off with the time i was born.i was just like others were born.but this one was abnormally special.a cancer guy.with weak bones,which break so easily.i have an efficient haemoglobin now.but i don even if this will really work.i am not watching myself but also look my father who is going to retire this month from a prestigious Central Govt department.he has a blue lighted car.and all the things.but atlast his younger son will die someday.
I am happy that atleast only God will kill me,not accident.
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